en flicka skriver ett vykort

that will be me...postcards from sverige. oooh exciting. i finally finally finally applied for my passport yesterday. and of course the passport picture is blah. not the worst i guess but certainly not the best. i'm so stoked though to go see yoon. it really is the most random thing to meet people on the internet to whom you end up becoming super close. jon is one of them. paul in manchester is another one. julio in texas is yet another one. but with jon i feel like it's super special because we've just clicked, i think so anyway. it's weird too cause it's like one day we were just talking every once in awhile and only for a few minutes at a time, and then the next i knew we were talking all the time. it was really cool. and i couldn't even imagine not having him as a friend...he's become that much of a constant in my life. and for someone i've never met in person i feel like he's seriously one of my best friends ever. and i know that julio has said that you can only get to know someone on the internet so deep, which in one way is very true, but in another way it's almost like you get to know someone even deeper. you say things you might normally be embarrassed to say to someone's face, you let your guard down, you let them IN to the real you. jon saw me at my worst and was there through all the icky julia shit and i'm so grateful that he wasn't just like OH MY GOD YOU'RE AN IDIOT even when i made him talk to her when she, being the jack ass that she is, wanted to explain to jon that she still loved me but just couldn't be with me at this time. ugh. and me, being the jack ass that i am, allowed this disgusting conversation to go on. in retrospect, i think she only wanted to tell him that because she was jealous of him. it wasn't that she really loved me. point being that jon was there for me during that stressful period of my life...he was just as much there as my real life friends were and i love him for that.

so....i am stoked to be there in less than a month and cannot wait to just do the things we've always talked about doing together. so many times i wished we could just chill and hang out drinking wine and being silly. now we'll be able to do it. and there won't be the barrier of a computer screen in front of us. fun stuff, it is.